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Day 13 Tonight I had a chat with my girlfriend regarding my desire to go extended periods without ejaculating and handing control of my cock over to her. I suffer what I call terrible hangovers after cumming, marked by a notable drop in motivation and energy, sometimes even hovering near depression. The time spent in chastity amplifies my type A, results-oriented personality, which is something I enjoy; this pushes me to avoid orgasms despite their strong but brief pleasure. Ruining an orgasm acts as a wildcard. Sometimes it feels like the experience was nearly erased, while other times the outcome isn’t vastly different from a normal one. When I edge consistently during periods of chastity, my dopamine and testosterone levels appear to rise significantly, improving both my body composition and mood. I explained all this to her. My girlfriend had no issue with me being in chastity since she has always loved giving oral sex immensely. However, she wanted nothing to do with the responsibility of controlling my cock directly. I told her about the power she would hold by managing my orgasms, but it seemed to go over her head. I think this is because we usually have a dynamic where I am more dominant overall. On the positive side, she said she was fine with a third party controlling my orgasms as long as she didn’t have to deal with any noise or hassle about it. I admit I don’t fully grasp why that matters so much, but it’s not a bad outcome at all, so I’ll accept it. While it would be perfect if Girlfriend and Goddess were the same person, the triangle relationship we currently have is working well, and now there is complete honesty between us. Instead of trying to fix something that isn’t broken, I plan to seize the day and make the most of what I already have, which is pretty great.