Chastity and orgasm denial discussion

I’ve been locked up for two wonderful weeks under my mistress’s control… After the first week, she applied EMLA cream to my cock and fucked me until I went soft (since I couldn’t feel a thing), then made me sit between her legs while trying to stay hard as she used her vibe. When she climaxed, she had me eat her. Afterwards, I felt elated… loved the tease and denial… actually felt relieved even though totally denied… Fast forward a few days: Mistress teased me with reverse milking using an interestingly shaped prostate massager which was intense but placed backwards so it wouldn’t milk me… again…felt relief, loved the teasing and attention… Fast forward to day 14… we decided to play as one of her family members is coming to stay. This means I’ll be locked for about 10 days straight with no play at all. Mistress said she’d likely let me have an orgasm so there was no pressure on her side… and since she wasn’t in the mood for sex either, well… She had me lie on my back, get hard, and edge for about 20 minutes before announcing I would cum. Silly me asked if she could take me over the edge with her hand (she’d been lying there supervising)… it seemed reasonable then but Mistress sighed as though I was asking too much. I said… don’t worry then I will do it myself… so she slapped me and told me she was joking before starting on my cock… As I reached the peak, she pulled her hand away… ruining my orgasm absolutely perfectly… I pumped a load onto my chest and what landed on her hand got wiped across my face. Usually I’d be happy about this scene but for some reason I felt bummed …I know I should appreciate it…but lying there thinking of all the scenarios I’ve read here…and how horny they make me feel, yet reality left me feeling let down…that said its not the first time I’ve had a ruined orgasm..I don’t normally feel this way,…still struggling the next day over why this felt different…Anyway the keys are gone for 10 days…time enough to adjust my attitude i suppose… We did discuss it which can be tetchy because Mistress gets pretty angry if she feels I am being unappreciative of the attention received…But we navigated that OK…we ended up agreeing I probably should not have cum at all. I cant help how I feel though…which is why this is called the reality of the ruined orgasm It’s a classic case of mentally toping from the bottom i guess…I did not get what I expected and now I am having a fit… Thankfully I am in control…but it can be tough sometimes.