I’m new to this forum but familiar with the lifestyle. I have a long story behind me that I’d be happy to share, so let’s jump ahead to what completely amazed me today! (And yes, I plan to explain later the funny yet enjoyable self-denial journey that has kept me in denial for two weeks leading up to my Super Bowl wager.)
Today, I experienced the second type of event—twice. An “internal orgasm.” At first, I thought it might be fake or perhaps people were exaggerating those stories about milking.
To give some context: I’ve been into BDSM for years. I just joined here recently, so while new to this specific spot, I’m certainly not a novice.
Adding to that background and my main point: as of 16 days ago, I started self-denial after losing the Super Bowl bet because my beloved Patriots lost to the Denver Broncos (another long story for another time).
Today was truly the most incredible sexual experience of my life without ejaculating or even leaking pre-cum. It happened while I was meditating and napping with an Aneros wand inside me. Before buying it, I read a lot of feedback both before and after purchase. In fact, I visited our local Amazing store to speak with the staff member to verify if what I’d read was accurate (since online sex toy purchases often don’t match reality). She mentioned that her male friend said he had one of the best orgasms ever from using it.
My research led me to several sites which I explored deeply. The most common theme, which matched my experience perfectly, is that prostate massage causes pre-cum leakage and then ejaculate fluid release without the pleasure of an orgasm—which was exactly what I hoped for when buying the Aneros. I tried a few times but didn’t quite feel it at first. There was some leaking, not much different from using various plugs over the years. I definitely know where my prostate gland is now, and love that “oh, there it is” sensation!
Fast forward to today: It made me cum internally while napping in a way I’ve never felt before! Then it happened again.
I relaxed, cleared my mind, and mentally prepared—things I hadn’t done thoroughly during previous attempts. I changed positions several times. They recommend using your body’s natural position to target the prostate: lying on your side with the top leg bent up and slightly leaning forward. Additional info suggests you can move around a bit once you get used to how it feels.
So, trying this way and that, while still tired from shoveling snow after our recent storm in the NorthEast US, I was quickly falling asleep early afternoon—around 4:00 PM—with the Aneros plug still inside.
Then I felt a massive buzzing, a throbbing on my prostate around the wand’s head. I wasn’t fully awake but not quite asleep either. I actually heard myself saying internally, “Holy shit, here it comes” (referring to all that internal activity described in articles). I was conscious enough to think this yet still sleeping! At first, I tried to hold back against the intense feeling, similar to when I first masturbated as a kid and found it overwhelming. Then I made an “okay, just let go” decision. Partly awake, wanting to see if all those claims were true… My mind was in a bit of a cloud for only a second while deciding.
I clenched, the plug pressed firmly against my prostate again, and I completely lost it! No cum, no erection—just pure release. It pulsed in an unexplainable way; other than being internal, every pulse felt like that first time discovering your prostate, but with an electric shock sensation. And it kept going on randomly. The dream wasn’t even sexy or fully formed—it just shifted scenes. I had some minimal control but kept clenching regardless of the dream context, exploding purely from my prostate. Throb after throb, endlessly.
From all my research, one thing stood out: mental state is a huge factor. So while lying in bed naturally afterward, processing what happened, I decided to try again! I resumed the suggested position—lying on my side with top leg bent and leaning slightly forward—and tried drifting back into “nap space.”
It worked again! I drifted off, had some random dreams, then felt rhythmic pulsing where my prostate met the toy. It was less intense this time, matching the gentler dreams. Interestingly, I even heard myself asking to be woken up at one point (lol). Also worth noting: it’s been just over two weeks since my last traditional O (maybe a factor?), and I don’t do anal play very often.
Any thoughts would be appreciated. I’ve read about this before but never experienced such intensity, and never without any fluids leaving the body. Definitely didn’t have an orgasm in the usual sense, and was surprised not to find wet sheets.
Hoping Denver loses again so my denial doesn’t extend another week (lol)!
There’s much more to share later, but thanks for making this a great community.