Introductions discussion

Hi there, I’m Leonhart. I am completely new to the world of orgasm denial, a niche within sexuality that was entirely unknown to me until some curiosity led me down this rabbit hole. After checking out a few sex blogs online, I stumbled upon your site. As of now, I’m a 30-year-old man in England, about to walk down the aisle. My fiancée has no clue what’s going on behind closed doors and that suits me just fine! I’m still figuring out where exactly I belong here among you all. I really like keeping myself from finishing, sometimes teasing my own limits to see how long they last. Usually though, not for very long—a week is currently the longest stretch I’ve managed. The fact remains that my fiancée does want intimacy occasionally and there’s no reason why she shouldn’t have it, so lately I’ve been alternating between abstinence from masturbation until either a) I give in or b) we do it together. I’m not sure if there is specific terminology for this pattern! But anyway, here’s my purpose: to enjoy the excitement of being denied, maybe reaching that peak edge without actually crossing over. The thought of a woman controlling when I get relief, deliberately keeping me on the hook with those throbbing urges, feels incredibly potent and deeply arousing. So yes, new member at large. Not entirely sure what lies ahead or who will be waiting for me here. We shall see. -Leonhart-