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We’re sprinting at the end of our marathon year of orgasm control. I’m on day 20 without orgasm. She gave me zero orgasms in January, just 4 ruined ones… and the idea of no orgasms in June and July was very appealing. Ever since I ordered my custom steel cage (from MaleChastityNow) last July, she’s been 100% in control of my pleasure since last July. This started in Dec 2013, when I finally truly submitted to her… to her happiness and pleasure. After topping from the bottom, and regressing and angling, I resolved to submit to her will. I had tried to give up masturbation on the honor system, but only made it three months before I started edging myself. In April 2014, she decided I should finally get pierced. It was after milking myself with the gorgeous stainless steel NJoy, kneeling before her, naked, except locked in plastic. She smiled as I moaned and pouring out cum. I had been nervously dreaming about this for 15 years. So now I have the gift of security - inescapable steel chastity. No pulling out in the middle of the night. My PA-hook keeps me still in my steel. It’s like I’m a crate-trained puppy. Being locked is a comfortable safe space, a gift. Not a punishment. After a year of submission, just before New Years Eve 2015, I made sure she was happy with “us”, and my behavior. I work hard at being calm, and not puppy-dogging her. She’s told me firmly, that I am not allowed to chase her. She can tease me whenever she wants, and I’m not to pout or whine, or grab at her. It’s been difficult, but just last night I complied without complaint. I’m sorry, I’m chastity-drunk right now, and tend to ramble. She agreed to continue. She agreed I would not masturbate for all of 2015. She teases and pleases me whenever she likes. I try very hard not to beg for pleasure or continued denial. In May, she decided on a new device, the MouseTrap. This was the first time she chose a chastity device for me. She’s learned I can’t cum without frenum stimulation, despite weeks of trying. This new device is perfect. It allows her full access to tease, but I can’t get off. I’ll admit not trying, I’m a good boy! I don’t want to break the spell, as this one is special gift from her. You can see me in her MouseTrap in my gallery! She said she might get it engraved someday.:) … Finally, let me get to the present. I had finally asked her politely if she would help make our one year anniversary of her orgasm control special. I don’t normally ask, but I asked for at least 3 weeks of orgasm denial (tomorrow), with the goal of no orgasm until our first anniversary. She said “we’ll see” with a smirk, and hasn’t given me an answer yet. On Thursday, after breaking my 17-day record of no ejaculation (milking, ruined or spontaneous), we had a glorious hour-long session of teasing. I thought it was over, but hours later, she guided me upstairs and to the bedroom. She spread her legs, showing me her trimmed pussy. “It’s your decision” she said. Tempting me that it was I who asked to not cum until July 17th. She was silky and wet. Pure heaven. I hadn’t felt her in weeks. I could barely move without spilling. Her muscles undulated and gripped me, trying to get me to cum. I pulled out when it got to be too much. I hung there, my cock singing in the air, right in front of her lips. We kissed passionately. Then it must have happened. I had felt absolutely nothing, but she told me I had poured out while we kissed. I looked down to see her mound and lips covered with thick white cum. A lot of it! 18 days without release, and I ejaculated, completely without orgasm, or a single twitch. I smiled and played with it. I wanted to go down on her, but wasn’t sure how she’d react. My fingers slowly toyed with her lips and hood. She relaxed and enjoyed it. I asked before I slipped my finger inside her, and she nodded with approval. I felt her, gloriously hot wet and silky. My eyes fluttered. My cock was still rock hard. I gently fingered her with a second finger, and felt her clench all around me. She teased my fingers, making me wish I was insider her again. Later we showered - her (a sticky mess), and me with my unflagging erection. We talked. She confirmed I hadn’t had an orgasm, and made sure I was ok. I hugged her, assuring her that I felt great and was happy. It was less than any ruined orgasm I’ve ever had, I felt nothing! It was the perfect ruined orgasm. It was sweet and silent. I just poured out as I hung there, slathered in her juices. No spurts, no clenching, no twitching. I released weeks of cum, without noticing. Zero orgasm. I was a good boy. I mean it, t was absolutely perfect. The stuff of fantasies. She told me she loves how responsive I’ve become to her touch. I’ve felt no drop in desire or adoration. And she is still enjoying me in this state. She touches my nipples and my eyes flutter and I blush with how easy I’ve become. I know I am high right now, and far too many expectations, but… I am eager to mark this 1st year, this marathon of being under her orgasm control, with a sprint at the end. I hope you enjoyed me sharing our experience. We are!:) Tell me, how much longer should we go? How much longer should I be denied an orgasm?