I’d argue it’s actually the reverse;-) Since April 2014, I’ve been denied release. But instead of suffering, I’ve come to truly appreciate the mental satisfaction that comes from serving my wife orally and in other ways..
Occasionally she has had to soothe me down - because I was so eager to please, watching her flex and tremble, I would rush straight to the finish line.
Yesterday, she mentioned noticing a real shift in how I approach things lately. I take more time now, move slower, letting her senses expand to experience much more, which provides her with extra pleasures that previously went unnoticed. Hearing her say that made me very happy… The change has happened quite quietly; I hadn’t fully realized the extent of it until we discussed last night’s lovely service. It seems these changes stem from accepting my permanent denial and realizing that all this pleasure is meant for her to claim…
As I mentioned, one might assume that being denied for such a long time would make me even more frantic,
- but not so:).-)