Introductions discussion

Hello, I’m Lesley. I would say I identify as genderqueer—born male, but perhaps leaning toward lesbian. My femme side has always been my preference, and I find the complexities of penetrating women off-putting. Masturbation and being pegged are my top choices for sexual release. Fortunately, nature was kind to me with a very small penis; various health issues have now lowered my libido significantly (I believe long-term high-dose finasteride treatment is responsible, but I consider it a blessed relief as it diminishes my masculinity). In 2004, I visited a specialist doctor at an East End London GP practice. As a circumcision expert, he delivered exactly what I wanted aesthetically: an extremely tight closure with the frenum removed. It’s cut so snugly that my scrotal sac becomes part of the penile shaft; when I achieve erection, it feels taut and holds my testicles close to the body. Combined with impotence and urinary incontinence, this has allowed me to enjoy a sense of chastity. During the day, I wear a condom catheter paired with leg bag under women’s incontinence panties, making me feel completely chaste. I shave my entire body daily using ladies’ shaving cream (Queen of Shaves) and a Venus razor. Women’s deodorant is essential. I have to use a toilet stall to empty the bag, which keeps me away from the dreaded male urinal experience. At night, I wear a large incontinence pad under tight inco panties, plus an extra layer of security with Euroflex plastic long-john underwear. Every three months or so, I milk my prostate—this usually produces less than half a teaspoon of emission with little to no pleasure. I think