I thought I’d ask for a bit of assistance:)
For ages, I’ve had quite the time keeping him (@BlueEyes) in indefinite denial. What would be the side effects? Would I miss out on anything? Well, this round has gone 6-7 weeks now, and I’m starting to feel confident that I can pull it off. No unpleasant issues so far. The service he provides is fantastic both inside and outside of bed. He seems incredibly satisfied yet still very aroused.
I’ve had him purchase a new device which I start putting on him occasionally so I can tease him more when the mood strikes. The tube he usually wears doesn’t allow for much teasing.
However, I prefer having him in the tube most of the time. It’s not that I worry about him cheating and stimulating himself; I really don’t think he dares—and I doubt he even wants to. He knows it belongs to me. But this new device isn’t escape-proof, so it’s mainly for play.
I initially missed out on penetration, but now I command him to penetrate almost every time he attends to me. I love the power surge when I order him not to cum while demanding he stay inside for a good while longer. When I send him away and make him finish me off with his tongue, I truly feel the benefits of this lifestyle, without feeling any pity for him. It surprised me at first. Deep down, I know this is what he wants too—though you can see his sweet frustration. Still, he seems content just being near, serving me, doing my chores and such.
He trembles when I “go,” quite a lot in fact:) With my juices all over his face, he wears one big smile and thanks me repeatedly.
I wonder if I’m just lucky that he handles the denial so well? Also, is a total lack of guilt common once you really settle into this role of being in charge? I don’t want to turn into an unfeeling bitch. After all, he was the one who initiated this to curb his excessive self-pleasure.
But I must admit, he’s pushing my limits toward more control, teasing, and denial, while compassion wanes a bit. Or am I doing that myself—hi-hi?
I’m quite happy with where we are now, but I’d like to hear from others about their long-term experiences. Is it a constant slide upward, or do you manage to keep things at a certain level and stay satisfied there?
Some seem to think it’s unhealthy not allowing him to cum for extended periods, while others disagree, saying his body adapts and consumes his “production.” I don’t feel like “milking” either. Maybe I’m being too selfish in wanting to keep him on edge all the time. hi.hi