I have entered my second day of being locked up once more. This time, I cannot access an emergency key without Mistress finding out. As a Christmas gift to her, I provided a hide-a-key box along with some tamper-proof stickers. Now, unlocking myself reveals that I accessed the key unless she is aware; the only other option for my release rests on the chain around her neck.
Still, I find myself asking why it matters so much? Even though escaping her cage is physically possible (I could manage to pull out), mentally I know I would be letting her down if I did.
Even knowing that a desperate moment of escape is conceivable… what is the benefit? Breaking her trust for just a moment of self-relief feels like too high a price.
She definitely holds mental control over me. When she says “spread your arms and legs,” cuffs and chains are not strictly necessary to hold my wrists and ankles (though having them secured does feel freeing). I know that moving in such moments would disappoint her.
Wearing the chastity device is like being physically bound, rather than merely staying put through willpower. It serves as a tangible reminder of my place and submission. I find myself wanting to keep it on correctly much more strongly than desiring to escape it. Every time I consider getting out, I recall how it would feel… cheating… uncontrolled… defiant yet undisciplined.
My mental submission to her is far more significant and interesting than simply being physically unable to resist.
When we first met, disappointing moments when I could slip free from her handcuffs used to haunt my dreams. Now, I am actually pleased when she chooses to use them!
Shouldn’t we prize mental control above physical constraint? Isn’t that far more compelling? ~m