Is It Possible I Can Last?

My spouse made it clear that tonight she expects some action which is awesome since she hasn’t been available for the last 10 days. Immediately I started running through all the options of things we might do and it occurred to me that I have another 60 days in my request to go 90 days under lock and key. I thought I was ready to go that long but doing the math today it seems like a really, really long time now. Yeah, I’m whining. I know it. I feel like I’ve gotten on the roller coaster and having second thoughts as you climb that first big hill. I don’t know about this… I want off! I have no doubt that my spouse would let me out if I was truly struggling, she is too soft-hearted to be strict on her chaste husband. It is one of the reasons I love her so much, she doesn’t want me to be in pain or suffer or even be uncomfortable… even when I want it. She has been very good about teasing me right before bed and it has been a boon to my sleep at night. She stirs me up and when I relax, I drop like a rock. Two months to go. Any tips you may have would be most welcome.