I’m launching a new thread and journal since I’ve now completed four full years with my wife and mistress. Year five is beginning, who knows what it will bring.
2020 started without an O, erection, or physical contact for nearly two months. The hiatus ended in quite the toe-curling fashion last night. I am currently uncaged…I was told to lock up immediately, but I’ve been sneaking out a bit hahaha.
For those who don’t know me and our story, feel free to read some of my other journals “uh oh I think she likes it” and “the evolution of mistress amante”. I will give a brief recap here in case you don’t want to wade through four years of fun, struggle, whining, and venting.
We began as an ordinary couple dating. I was emerging from a nasty divorce, and honestly, wanted this relationship to be different. I shared with her my submissive sexual preference, need for chastity, desire to lose control over that part of my life, my feminine nature, and within a few months revealed that I am intersex.
She handled it quite well overall. She didn’t fully grasp why someone would want to lock their privates up or give that power away, but she agreed to try it and hasn’t looked back since.
We started with her unlocking me every night, usually ending in an O, then came ruined O’s and lots of teasing. One day I mentioned that grooming wasn’t hard for me because I could just pull it out the back. She was visibly upset; she didn’t know I had always been able to do that. When I casually said a piercing is the only way to fix that issue permanently, she told me to make the appointment. We went shortly after and she watched me get pierced.
It took some time for everything to heal completely. I bought a cage that allowed me to wear my piercing without hurting it during healing. In the coming months, she really stepped into her role as being in charge of sex and feeling guilt-free about it. You see, while I healed, I still ended up pleasuring her. That set up our dynamic where she could have sex whenever she wanted without worrying about reciprocation…since physically getting hurt would be an issue for me if she did.
Once I healed, her taking what she wanted and giving me nothing unless she felt like it continued. Along with that, we communicated some of her kinks as well as mine. We started experimenting with her kinks like physical punishment, spankings, paddling, and even maid service.
Unlocking went from almost every night to about once a month or so. Somehow we kind of naturally drifted into what would be called female led, or maybe service oriented. I started doing more acts of service such as starting her car, making her lunch, coffee, dishes, laundry, foot rubs, and cleaning the house in general. Of course the maid service was more sexualized but didn’t involve sex directly: painting her nails, washing her hair, and massages.
I was born intersex; I’ve always known it, but at my age my body just isn’t keeping up on the male end and is sliding more female. This comes with certain physical changes over the last few years, breast development and a feminine figure being most prevalent. I mention this because this worried me and our future, but she handled it great and stuck with me…boobs and all.
As time went by, we have settled down into a very loving D/s life that doesn’t focus everyday around our kinks. We played around with the idea of being in a cuckold marriage; there are some roadblocks for her that have basically kept it to just fantasy. One: she doesn’t feel comfortable with it becoming public knowledge and discretion would need to be total. Two, it would be odd for her to just go on a stranger and get busy…huge cock or not. Three, she and I both want it to be with me there…the guy would have to be ok with that. Four, if the guy is up to all this, he still has to be ok with not being in a romantic relationship and just a fuck toy. And five, safety as far as disease and all that. With all that, finding the perfect guy and scenario would be like finding a unicorn…so we are leaving it open and if the perfect thing happens to happen we may just do it. We are open but with a very picky set up.
I have about 10 orgasms a year; I use toys and wand on her an unknown number of times lol. We now don’t do much punishment or teases, ruined orgasm has kind of went away too. I am physically not very big so sex with me is mostly something just for me. When she wants me to have one she’ll give me one.
Will update on this thread from here on out.