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On the one hand: My wife keeps me locked up constantly, and it’s pure torture. I brought her into chastity three years ago, so this is my doing. It led us here. She has me locked around the clock. She teases me and plays with me nonstop. We cuddle and have intimacy. She lets me go a day or two at a time, but always makes me lock back up, which drives me mad. I can handle my horniness when I’m free; I get erections, and she allows me to dry hump her. I am 6’3”/240 lbs while she is 5’2”/120 lbs… feeling incredibly submissive as she forces me into the cage, strips away my freedom, and starts teasing. Or when I step out of line and she demands I strip naked and lie on the bed for a spanking. I am a horny, subby husband around the clock. I miss being free so much—to control my own penis instead of being a horned-up mess. On the other hand: My wife has taken this chastity fetish I had and made it her own as she falls deeper in love with controlling me and acting as my mistress. When she gives me an orgasm or we have sex, it is absolutely explosive. The best orgasms of my life have happened over the last year, even if they are rare. I just miss having more freedom and realizing I gave that control to my wife; this seems to be how my life will continue… I am constantly reminded that I belong to her. I’m a young, attractive man who spends time in the gym… with a wedding ring on my finger… women flirt with me all the time. My wife has gotten into the habit of making sure I keep a hickey on my neck; she says it’s her marking her property. She enjoys other women hitting on me while knowing she controls all my sexual energy behind that locked cage around her cock. Anyway, time to get ready for another day. It’s been about a month since my last orgasm. I hope she gives me one today. I just need to worship her body all day and cross my fingers… I don’t want her to delay me by another week or two. I’m afraid I’ll have a wet dream in my sleep, and she will punish me with a spanking like last time—it was intense enough that I didn’t want another one.