I’ve realized now that I can wear my device outside comfortably and discreetly, even to bed, that I actually dislike being unlocked. Occasionally, my keyholder requires me to unlock for skin issues (I use a metal ring behind the glans as a substitute, though it’s not quite the same) until it heals up. Sometimes the ring grips the skin enough to rub it raw, likely while sleeping and moving around, particularly with morning wood (which I get much less of when unlocked, funny that). Or perhaps the locating pins have just enough play to pinch and break the skin when lying on my stomach. Either way, I had to unlock yesterday.
I experienced real anxiety at bedtime, worrying I might wake up with an erect but still-locked morning wood. This is largely because having locked erections is a big part of our rules and dynamic; now I feel just as bad if one happens as I would if I were weak and masturbated. Also, my parts would get soundly beaten if they did. My wife and I are meeting my keyholder for an evening event tonight, and I dread having to be unlocked.
I remember when it was harder to stay locked in, with freedom being the exciting part. Suddenly, I’m a man who prefers that snug, secure feeling of the cage over having everything flopping around loose. Does anyone else have those moments where you realize you prefer chastity to freedom? Not just craving it for a period, but preferring it day-to-day, finding unlocked discomforting?