After I enjoyed some lovely “perfect” days in chastity when I first joined, my girlfriend wanted sex and received it, causing me to cum. Well… After a brief period of building back up, I was ready to play the chastity game once more.
My gf has her own apartment, so we don’t see each other daily. She sent me a text asking that I lock myself in again, which I did. I love it. But then one morning, she let me take the device off (I have an emergency key). I followed instructions, but during the day I slipped back into old routines: not being very submissive at all, and well, looking at some hot pictures… and masturbating. I am a bit disappointed in my weak self-control.
I know that I will enjoy being locked and denied, yet I try to avoid wearing it no matter what. Something in my head resists it - even though teasing while locked by my gf is more enjoyable than just watching porn and jerking off.
I suppose the lack of strictness from her makes me less excited when she allows me to be unlocked. I mentioned this to her, so hopefully she will try harder (and I’ll strive to be stronger too - because it should be fun for her as well) next time.
So my guess is that I will get locked up again tonight or over the weekend when I visit her. Oh dear. I don’t want to ruin this opportunity.