Should I let go and cum tonight?

My Queen traveled out of town from Wednesday through Sunday. I touched myself frequently on the day she departed and again yesterday. Last night, my arousal built up as I edged repeatedly until I reached that critical point where it was too late to stop, so I let go prematurely. Shortly after, while browsing more Tumblr porn, I got so worked up that I did it a second time—edged just short of the edge but still came, ruining myself once more. This morning, I put on my punishment device and wore the pink thong panties that my Queen occasionally commands me to wear. However, I am eager to unlock myself tonight for a proper climax. What do you all think? Should I let go cumming tonight? My thoughts are racing with options. Could it be a prostate orgasm? Beating my nuts until they shoot? Or perhaps leaving the decision up to chance? But really, what I want most is just to unlock and ejaculate. I would love your input!