I’ve wanted to experiment with chastity gear for ages. A while back I tried an old-style “curve” model, and recently picked up a new one. For the past week or so, I’ve been wearing it almost non-stop (removing it only at night), though there have still been some kinks in the process—getting the size right, moving around comfortably with it, that sort of thing.
My fiancée knows about my chastity fetish and is aware I’m wearing a device. She seems keen on exploring this side of things further. However, she hasn’t quite taken on the role of key holder yet during this recent period; I’ve been mostly figuring out the practicalities myself while keeping her in the loop. She sees me take it off each night, so she’s aware of how it fits.
She has explicitly said she wants to participate more. Next Monday (in two days), we’ll sit down and discuss exactly what level of involvement interests her most. I plan to show her some online resources too, giving her the chance to do her own research and decide what appeals to her.
Earlier this week, I mentioned a personal goal: no orgasms until the 11th (nine days from now—there’s a specific reason for that date, though it requires quite an explanation). My last one was sometime in the middle of last week.
She is away until Monday. This gives me the house to myself on Friday night, Saturday all day and night, and Sunday morning.
Here lies my… issue [“issue” might be a better word than “problem”]. In the past, I’ve gone about a week without climaxing while still masturbating daily. My focus wasn’t really on reaching orgasm but rather maintaining arousal through direct touch to my penis. Now that I’m not touching it—having abstained from manual stimulation for over a week (aside from morning washes and evening adjustments after removing the device for sleep)—I find myself hyper-focused on sexual tension linked with my fiancée.
It’s been over a year since I last gave her oral sex, perhaps even longer. But last night, while wearing the “curve,” arousal hit me hard. I went into the bedroom where she was lying down and immediately started kissing her thighs and sniffing around before going down on her (I felt like a man possessed). Combining the chastity device with giving pleasure drove me nearly crazy, but in a good way! She loved it too, which made it incredibly hot for me. Just recalling it now is enough to stir things up.
That said, I don’t think she fully realizes just how turned on I am right now (and have been for the last day or two). Part of me wants to text her and let her know I’m hard for her, ready to eat her out. Another part wants to call her and whisper dirty things into the receiver. Even touching her underwear sounds appealing.
However, I hesitate to actually send that text or make that call because I worry about scaring her off a bit. Also, while I want to touch her underwear, I feel it might be an invasion of privacy if I do so abruptly.
I just feel a little adrift and overwhelmed by this arousal. Does anyone have any advice or thoughts?