Teased or Left Locked Up?

Last night I felt pretty stressed out. My mind was racing with too many thoughts. Melissa and I discussed several of the issues weighing on me, and then I shared how I used to handle it by arguing with her over sex. I explained my internal logic: I’m exhausted, tense, and full of sexual energy. The pull toward my old stress relief—fantasy and masturbation—was strong. (Still abiding by the honor system until Mistress arrives). It’s been over two weeks since my last release and a week without any playtime at all. She seems to be using this chastity arrangement as an excuse to ignore me sexually. Sure, she has me rubbing her feet often and caressing her frequently, plus making some flirtatious remarks, but I get the sense she isn’t fully engaged in it yet. Normally, I’d get irritated by that and we’d fight, letting things sour again… So I laid out my explanation, admitting how tempted I was to break free, and she… just sat there. She pointed out two of our rules (no self-play and no releasing without permission) and then went back to sleep. It worked for me; I got into bed and behaved. This morning I noted that some KeyHolders might have felt a bit guilty and given in. Her firmness is exactly what I needed at that moment. So now I know she won’t easily be swayed. I also asked if she preferred to keep the teasing light and mostly just leave me locked up while she enjoys herself in between. She agreed. From time to time, there would be some teasing, but overall, my odds are better of staying shut. That wasn’t what I expected it to be, but it’s what she desires. And her desire turns me on. Do you all stay locked more than you get teased? Michael