Wow, it has been a while since I last posted here. Master and I have cycled through our D/s lifestyle so many times that we lost track of the count, but it seems like we are back on course.
The purpose of this new diary isn’t just to keep a journal; rather, I want to document my life as a pup while recording the progress of the temporary neutering process I am undergoing. You can find the description of the procedure here [ It might work as advertised, and while the theory may not be strictly grounded in medical science, I asked Master if we could give it a shot. Now he seems determined to see me through it.
I want to try this because when my arousal peaks, I experience conflicting desires: I want to remain chaste and serve Master fully, yet I also crave the release of cumming for that momentary pleasure. However, if I do climax, I feel like I can’t serve him as well afterward.
Last night was our first attempt in years. For the most part, we followed the description: warming my testicles over several hours. As noted, I began to crave more heat, so they applied more. I didn’t climax from the heating itself, but Master later gave me a ruined orgasm; indeed, my cum appeared clear and watery. Unfortunately, Master continued on and delivered two additional ruined orgasms, which have roughly the same effect as a full one.
Note: I think I overdid it slightly and got addicted to the feeling of heated testicles, continuing to warm them for about 3 hours. The result was an increase in my core body temperature, leaving me not quite right. When they advise stopping after 30 minutes of continuous heating, I should have listened.
I feel a bit more submissive today, though I’m not at peak arousal. Master instructed me to heat my testicles for one hour afterward, and now that they are tucked away, the warming effect persists.
On another note, I might be getting my foreskin infibulated this week as a form of chastity, so I will also write about how that progresses.