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Hi I am Smaug, I promise to put up an avatar real soon, I have a picture of me in my belt which I’ll use. I did a little introduction in the appropriate thread if you want to find it there. I discovered the wonderful world of Dominance and submission and male chastity about eight years ago. My wonderful wife and I have taken advantage of its uses many times since then with great results. Dominance is not something that comes naturally to my wife and actually quite a struggle for her. She would be content to let me run things and make all the decisions in our marriage, which is how things usually go. When we first started to switch roles eight years ago it was challenging to say the least, I was topping from the bottom, trying to help her learn how to be the domme. That doesn’t work, not at all. So i decided to just quietly be submissive to her, I discovered there needs to be someone in charge, and if I wasn’t then no one was. We dropped the whole thing and went back to “normal”, whatever that means. Over the years we have discussed things and gone in and out of the wife led relationship. My Queen has learned a lot and is becoming more self assured. A few months ago after a doctor appt. of mine I requested we try again. I had gained weight and things were starting to take a their toll on my body. I proposed that she take charge of our marriage, when she is willing to make the decisions she has always made better ones than i have. After some discussions of what this meant she agreed to take charge again. She has set regular discipline times for the week where we can discuss progress, lack of progress and any changes I need to make. She uses her paddle on my bottom to help me be motivated and keep focused. I do not look forward to this as it really does hurt, a lot. I am to remain in a chastity device at all times unless she specifies otherwise. She puts a date in her calender at which time I will be allowed an orgasm by the means of her choosing. I don’t get to know the date so i never know when she will say, “go ahead and cum boy”. Right now today is day 16 since my last orgasm. My personal record is 45 days, that was hard, but what an orgasm. I love my Queen so much, I want only to please her. Last Sunday we made love but my Majesty told me before we started that I would not be allowed to cum. I would have thought I wouldn’t last long but we are finding out that I can. We were both very surprised at how long and how intense I could be without cumming. I never knew I could have that kind of control, Majesty loved it, as did I. For a change she got to be satisfied and I was left a little frustrated, talk about role reversal, LOL. We started all this to change some of my bad habits but I sure would love to see this become permanent. As time goes on I hope my Majesty will decide she likes the advantages for her and decides to make this permanent. I will take any feedback or suggestions anyone might have.