hi everyone, i’ve been watching this place for a long time and am just getting around to joining. now that i’m (at last) in chastity, with my kh being the goddess/girlfriend of six years, it seems like the right time to start sharing. there’s so much on my mind I don’t even know where to begin… let me point out a few things about this great site: *i am a college student (graduated) *we both came up with the idea, though i kind of moved toward it first *since my girlfriend/kh is naturally dominant, saying she was pleased would be an understatement;) *i am deeply submissive by nature, which i happily told her when we started dating *nope, not into sissification or cuckolding (for now)… that’s plenty of info for the moment, but here are some thoughts on chastity below. because this is my first time being sexually controlled, I have to admit at first it didn’t feel like much changed. then day 4 arrived. i’m not complaining about those initial three days of teasing and playtime though. but in the last few days of that first week, a strange sensation started rising in my tummy whenever i tried to touch myself but couldn’t reach release. naturally, i thought about using the safe-key I keep wrapped up in my wallet (which goddess checks when she gets back from work), but fear kept me away because of punishment. so i held off. now that days have passed, that sensation feels much better than I ever expected. i’m not sure what comes next since it’s only been two weeks since the lock-up began (we agreed on daily supervised showers where I take the device off for hygiene - that was my one non-negotiable point in our agreement).
oh i almost forgot: as a newcomer to this goddess role, and agreeing to start slowly, although now I can see how that might come back to bite me. yes, i wear a birdlocked (personally modified; more details later; i’m fairly handy;) ) and i quite like it, so goddess decided this should be our primary tool from now on. to put that in perspective: after making me put the device on, she had me try to jerk off inside it. yes, it was soft. yes, it felt pleasant. but i struggled for a full hour without reaching orgasm. simply didn’t work. i was sooooo close though. goddess really liked seeing that happen. so that’s where we are now; my next post will likely cover how I modified the birdlocked for better comfort and security. have a wonderful evening, filmriss