With the new year here and others kicking off fresh diaries, I might as well do the same. My sissy training diary never quite lived up to its name for various reasons. Our D/s lifestyle has seen plenty of peaks and valleys in 2008, but 2009 is a time for renewal.
I haven’t really made resolutions or plans before, but I think I’m going to look ahead this year. My primary goals are likely the standard ones: getting my business off the ground and sorting out financial issues, but beyond that, most of my other plans center on submission and feminization.
What I’d love to do this year is lose some weight. Losing a bit would make me look much more feminine and help me feel better about myself. I know Master says he likes how I am now, but I feel I’ll never truly look feminine until the weight drops off, and I really want to focus on my feminization.
Also this year, I’m going to try not to get too hopeful regarding play and a 24/7 lifestyle. Not that I doubt it will happen eventually, but I don’t want to pressure Master. I know he has some confidence issues, and I’d prefer we work through those together before moving forward.
I’ll try to self-motivate when it comes to my feminization. Forced fem would be fun, but I feel a strong desire to feel more feminine. I’m not entirely sure of the end goal, but this drive is there in me to explore my feminine side and become more so outside of play sessions. This might also relieve some pressure on Master.
Looking forward to sharing my first full year here, documenting the ups and downs of a D/s lifestyle (let’s hope mostly ups!).
Hope everyone has a wonderful 2009.
