I’m not even sure where to begin. I’ve worn a chastity belt before, but this time is different because I’m actually treating it as more than just an outlet for my sexual needs. We tried one previously, but since I wasn’t getting the relief from sexual fantasies that I expected, I got quite irritable and we gave up on it.
This new journey started on Monday. This time, I hope to get more out of being denied—specifically by cutting back on porn and stopping masturbation. It might sound a bit silly saying or typing this here, but I’m hoping to use this site as an outlet for support from others like us.
Right now, I’m not entirely sure how committed my wife is. She seems less forceful than I’d hoped, so I hope she gets more comfortable the longer we continue playing. She mentioned that she really enjoys interacting with the belt, but because I get so cranky and engrossed in the dynamic, she sometimes hesitates to engage fully. I know I need to be patient with my mood swings; I want her to have full control, yet part of me gets nervous about what happens if she actually takes that offer seriously. There’s also a conflict: I don’t want her to be wishy-washy. I want her to take charge and play it straight. It’s a complicated mix of emotions that I sometimes struggle to manage.
Another big worry is whether our intimacy will change while the belt stays on. Will we stop fooling around, or just do less? Currently, I’m usually the one who initiates sexual activities and foreplay. I really don’t want her to forget about me during this time.
Overall, after rereading what I’ve written (which seems to be the point!), I realize there is a lot for me to work on.