Female led relationships discussion

Greetings everyone. Let me start by saying I’ve had just one orgasm in a little over 450 days, and it’s been slightly more than 175 days since that last release. These are easily the longest periods of lock up we’ve seen since beginning (no, I suggested) chastity “play” nine years ago. I seem to be getting quite moody. On one hand, I love being kept locked by my wonderful Wife/Mistress/Keyholder. She TRULY seems engaged now as she happily wears her vanilla-looking, heart-shaped skeleton key necklace for everyone to see nearly every day. Back and foot rubs happen daily before bed, and body massages occur several times a week. Her toenail polish is almost always perfect (and it needs to stay that way now that sandal weather has arrived). I handle many of the mundane household chores she usually does, including more cooking when my work schedule allows. Personally, my grooming—like shaving my body and caring for my hair—is impeccable, hoping she might actually touch me. I’ve lost weight and am in better shape than at any point in over 10 years (thin and muscular @ 6’1” 195 lbs). I always wear the underwear she prefers (men’s bikinis, men’s thongs, bright sheer cotton, and silky spandex VS women’s bikinis & hipsters). I also fox up for her in a leather plug/strap on harness with hosiery or a body stocking during massages and footcare duties (she RARELY wears hose or skirts anymore but does wear sexy panties and bras) Yes, it is “all about her”, and I AM happy to serve…BUT, gotta admit that I feel neglected by her lately…sorta like a piece of china or a trophy on a shelf. Part of me wants to complain, but this has always been the problem prior to this stint in chastity. Admittedly I am cranky as hell. My only pleasure is the plug harness when I wear it now. I actually cannot wait for the opportunities to wear it at this point. That said, how do you deal with this? Sit back and take it? I want to be held, touched, kissed and teased! I want permission to do the same with her. I want so badly to give or receive strap on play. What do I do?! It’s overwhelmingly annoying. Do you think she wants me to beg? I am really at a loss. She seems to have gone asexual on me. Do Mistresses go through periods of indifference? It is really causing me some major mood swings…I want out, but yet I don’t. I have tried to ever so gently discuss my feelings and I just get told to keep doing what I am doing because she is very happy with me and with “us”. I even asked her if she was disappointed with me as I have evolved sexually (not the stud that used to pound her 3-4 times weekly at HER request prior to the introduction of chastity to our relationship. So, calling all subs and Mistresses! Please give me some guidance here. I am moody as hell, wondering what the heck is going on and need some suggestions and or advice. THANKS! allaboutHer