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Hey everyone out there, So this is my story about how i started off and where ive reached through this journey of submission and chastity! To the outside world,im this, oversmart,flirty, really funny and demanding leader type of guy. I hate showing my submissive side (maybe not hate,but i just dont end up showing it) to people outside. But then i met her, my gf who ive now been dating for 3 years now. Lets call her “S”. S and I study together in veterinary college in India, and thats when we started to get to know each other better and we started dating. She was this shy girl who i absolutely knew would freak out about my fantasies. So i kept mum on that for a while. For the first 1 and half -2 years our sex life was great! We were like 2 horny rabbits just waiting to be alone in a room,although it was strictly vanilla sex;P It was then that i finally had the courage to tell her about my submissive side. At first she was a bit confused when i told her how i would like her to be more dominant in bed,and she took that pretty well, teasing me and tying up my hands! It was fun. Then i started getting the courage to tell her more and more. I soon told her about my crossdressing fantasy and about how i love wearing womans underwear and dresses and etc when im alone. It took a while for it to sink in,but after a few days but she decided to indulge in my fantasy with me.I even told her about how i loved being taken by a strapon,and soon enough I bought one and we were having awesome anal sex. It was going great for a while and i would wear panties under my clothes throughout the week. But then i realised that it wasnt as fun for her as it was for me, so i decided to stop the crossdressing. I waited a few months before bringing up the idea of chastity. She was almost completely against it but decided to give it a try (She is so damn understanding,i love her so much). Soon after the belt arrived, I wore it for a period of only 3 days, before she told me how she didnt really understand my need for it. I told her that it would finally stop that horrible masturbation habbit, but she said that if i really didnt want to masturbate,that I shouldnt need a device to stop me. She should be more than enough rather than some stupid porn site. So then that chastity attempt failed. Following this was a long dry period, we had exams, I had to travel abroad for a while,then she went on a vacation etc. After this our sex life had kind of come to a standstill. Its not like we live together,so getting together became a tough job now,with college work load and exams and stuff. It had been almost a year now since I had brought up the topic of Chastity, and i decided to give it another try, something to spice up our love life,something that she could enjoy as well! So one day when we were together at my place, i had just give her 3 orgasms and she was now teasing me, i whispered into her ear saying how hot I thought it was to be left all horny an denied an orgasm for days to e told me that that is exactly whats going to happen and she went down on me and edged me a good 5 times! I was exremely horny and figured now would be a good time to bring up the topic!and this time I was prepared. I told her the real reason,about how I want her to be in charge of my orgasms,how its a big fantasy for me, and its not only an excuse to stop masturbating! I showed her an online blog where it explained why men crave chastity from their wives. She seemed pretty convinced after this, and so here I am, 1 week in chastity, and constantly horny:P Like i said, getting together is a problem these days, so in this past week, we didnt meet even once, nor does she really tease me of any sort, So at times i feel neglected. I guess she doesnt feel the same way because she doesnt have any device locked to her body part. She decided the next time I am released is only when she comes over to my house, which again,we dont know is when:(