I’ve been a little distracted here lately, but that doesn’t mean our chastity lifestyle has disappeared. Quite the opposite—it’s settled in nicely!
My wife @DREWife has worked hard to balance this way of life with our daily routine, and I think we’ve made good progress. She isn’t—and won’t be—completely consumed by it all. Even though Anne, my girlfriend, plays an intriguing role most weekends and often during the night on regular workdays (and I’m not always allowed in bed;-)), we still manage to maintain some “vanilla” routines.
When it comes to sex, however, it’s her domain, and she keeps me under strict permanent denial. It’s been this way for over 150 days now…
And if you promise not to tell, I don’t even miss a release! Lol!
I’d much prefer to stay in my current mindset, where all I think about when I’m not working is how to please her.
Well, let’s get into it…
Last week she came up to me and asked me to strip down and sit before her. The only thing I was wearing was my Steelworxx encapsulation steel tube. I wasn’t sure what she had in mind. She pulled down her panties and made me feel her scent.
Then she told me that she’d been thinking about something I once said when introducing this lifestyle to her: That the end goal could be eradicating the normal male mindset entirely, replacing it with one where my pleasure is part of hers. I think I mentioned a timeframe back then—based on what I had read here;-)—where a permanent change might occur after around a year.
She asked me where I stood in that process because she noticed major changes since taking up permanent denial for me, which she appreciated and welcomed greatly. In her opinion, I have become much more at ease: Happy, never frustrated, etc…
I responded that I had felt these dramatic changes myself and was truly pleased with her strict denial.
Then she surprised me with her next move when she said something like: “I would like to find out how deep this change is within you… Here is the key. Unlock it and hand me the device. Take out your PA ring and give that to me as well. Here, take a ring (actually similar to a large base ring)—put it on. I’ll have it engraved if you do good.”
I’m equipped pretty okay, but she likes the effect of having a cock ring still;-)
Oh my God, it was sensitive and throbbing once out of the cage;-). How long am I to wear this? I asked her. She said that I would start by wearing just the base ring/cockring for a full week, then two weeks, and so on. The end goal is to be without the device entirely, with only the ring remaining.
Will you cheat? she asks me. Will you get distracted at work? And all I could do was kiss her hands while saying no, no, no. I meant every word.
It’s been a week now, and the feeling of submission has not weakened—in fact, it has grown even more! A lot more in fact! Going from high to extreme. Just as I can see her power when she is fully dressed and I’m told to strip, I also detect tremendous submissive feelings while being naked yet denied from touching her toy at all times.
I simply could not cheat. It’s not my property anymore; I gave it away. She teases me more since it has been so exposed—and I feel the inside of my jeans intensely!
I feel her power so much. I couldn’t make myself touch. My hands probably couldn’t reach even if they tried;-) An hour ago she told me that we are continuing. She seems very satisfied, and I’m thrilled. The mission is almost completed, and I love it. If this lasts for good—time will tell…
I’ll report more after a full month in this version of the honor system. Technically, I’m no longer in chastity, but I have never felt so captured and happy before.
Sincerely, BlueEyes