I probably won’t be around much longer. I’m running out of things to share, unless I start fabricating content, which I’d rather avoid since I keep my fiction for the erotic stories online—that’s where my fantasy life happens, not here on forums. I’ve also realized that I only began posting when my lifestyle shifted and my depression was addressed. Back when I was deeply immersed in an alternate lifestyle, I didn’t feel compelled to write about it because I was living it daily.
Now, all I seem to do is reminisce about a past life I miss—a sort of emotional release for the secrets my wife and I kept hidden for so long that they became accepted as normal without any outside scrutiny. It’s been interesting sharing here with other forums, but I’ve come to realize I might be telling my story to the wrong crowd. Most people interested in chastity probably aren’t involved in active orgasm-seeking lives like I was. You don’t typically have threesomes or want a poly dynamic when orgasms are put on hold—it’s like serving a feast to someone on a diet.:)
I can’t expect others to see me as credible here, since folks like me don’t usually frequent this space. But I get it, and despite my aging memory and untreated ADHD that scatters my thoughts, everything I’ve said is true. The people here are wonderful, which made me feel safe coming out publicly in this community. I appreciated the posts from those grounded in reality and was glad to see men comfortable with their sexuality, even if they dared to differ from the standard male norm. I also praise the women on these forums for offering a female perspective that likely excited some of us too.:)
I believe I’ve said what needed saying, perhaps overstaying my welcome slightly. Posting here has become an obsession—a psychological habit not yet fully under control—and I’m starting to bore myself and sound preachy enough. It’s time when I notice I’ve commented on nearly every topic in the first few pages of recent activity. That isn’t healthy behavior at all. I might pop in occasionally, but like with masturbation, I’m trying to break this habit.