As some of you might know, I have been maintaining my own blog, but it doesn’t get much feedback… So I’ve decided to start posting copies of my entries here so I can get some responses. I’ll begin by copying all my blogs from the start of 2009. If you want to read earlier posts, please feel free to visit my blog site… All comments, support and feedback are appreciated… Oh, and why a roller coaster…well, you will soon figure that out as you read through my blogs… Monday, January 5, 2009 40th Birthday Present Happy New Year Everyone January 2nd was my 40th birthday, but we spent the holiday with family and didn’t celebrate in our own way until yesterday (the 5th). Since I was with family during that time, I wasn’t in chastity for the holiday period, although I had been good and hadn’t orgasmed since December 19th. However, on Christmas Day my Wife started to tease me every morning and night and made me promise not to masturbate until we got home so she could lock me back up again. I was very obedient in this regard. So yesterday (Sunday) arrived, and my Wife and I woke up at 6:30 am with the teasing starting right there in bed. After about 30 minutes we got up for breakfast outside while watching the sunrise; I remained naked throughout. After eating, my Wife locked me to our reclining sofa, arms behind my back and legs apart. A full day of on-and-off teasing began. My Wife told me she would tease me every day for the next 40 days without allowing me to cum as part of my 40th birthday present. The only significant break from teasing was when my Wife went shopping for an hour or so; she unbound me but had me put on a spiked leather locking cock and ball sack while she was out (the spikes faced inward). When she returned, I was bound to the sofa again and the teasing resumed. We had previously discussed me receiving 40 spanks from my Wife’s whip for my birthday, though I know she hasn’t really shown much enthusiasm for spanking me hard. So in the evening, I set up some pillows in the middle of the bed and lay across them spread-eagled while my Wife bound my wrists and ankles to the bed. She put on a blindfold gag and started giving me my 40 spankings. After ten, she stopped to stroke my cock, which was pointing down between my thighs, bringing me to the edge before continuing with another set of ten. This pattern continued until forty, when she removed my gag and asked how I was being honest; I told her that she was holding back and not spanking me very hard. I knew leatherspanking was new for my Wife and saw she was unsure about it, but to her credit she grabbed her whip and started whipping me as hard as she could, occasionally pausing to stroke my cock to the edge before resuming. She left my gag out, and I was pleading with her to stop, but she continued with this new experience. Finally, she stopped and uncuffed me. My backside was on fire, bright red with several welts. My Wife had learned a new way to keep me in line. So we had dinner and then it was back to the sofa for another couple of hours of teasing. In total, I was teased from 6:30 am until 11:00 pm by which time my cock was struggling to hold an erection, but that didn’t stop the relentless stroking and edging. My CB6000 went back on for bed, but it came off again this morning for another 45 minutes of teasing before being replaced ready for work. So here I am with balls that feel like oversized lead weights ready to explode and a cock that is aching and throbbing, with at least 37 more days to go. I say “at least” because my Wife has made it clear she may keep me denied even longer. The gift is 40 days of teasing with no orgasm. There is nothing in the present about coming after the 40 days…GULP. I wonder if this will become an annual birthday gift? Tuesday, January 13, 2009 Didn’t make it I know this post is a little late because I was away on business last week and have had the flu. Well, I was going away for business last Wednesday so my Wife was working up to making me suffer with blue balls while I was gone. After an hour or more of teasing we went to bed, and we teased some more, which turned out to be a mistake. We were both tired, and my Wife had a drink or two; unfortunately, the teasing resulted in one stroke too many. So I didn’t have blue balls while away on business, although I was still locked up. I guess the 40-day target has gone, especially since I’ve been sick recently. No teasing since last week, but no orgasms either. I’ve decided that I’ve topped from the bottom too much so I am going to sit back and see what my Wife does next without any prompting from me. Thursday, January 15, 2009 Back on track? So now I am on day 9 since our accidental orgasm, and have been locked ever since, with yesterday being my first day of release for some serious catch-up teasing. A couple of hours bound to the sofa while my Wife enjoyed our favorite TV shows, casually keeping me on edge the whole time. I am aching just as much as ever right now. February 11th was the original target date; that would have to be moved back to February 17th to make it 40 days without orgasm. My Wife hasn’t said when she will let me cum, and in my new approach I am not asking…although I did beg to cum last night (to no avail). I am waiting patiently to see what my Wife intends to do. I am away all next week on business, and my Wife is making sure I ache as much as possible before I leave, so that I go with full blue balls while I am away, securely locked of course! Hopefully we’ll have no accidents this time. You might think I would wish for an accident, and of course I could bite my lip while being teased and hope my Wife strokes once too far again without realizing how close I am, but we do have a contract that says she can stroke me through orgasm and deliver post-orgasm torture for as long as she desires. I am more frightened of being tortured for an unauthorized release and having to go another 40 days without an orgasm. If you don’t believe me, try stroking yourself for five minutes after one day!!!! Monday, January 26, 2009 Day 20 and counting I thought I would give a brief update. Last week I was away on business (Monday to Friday) and locked in my CB6000 the whole time, which was very frustrating. One thing you learn from being locked 24/7 in a cage with no removal for cleaning is that no matter how you wash in the shower or bath, you cannot prevent microbial reaction to sweating and the subsequent odor. To this end I have bought some Neosporan antibacterial cream which I will apply each time I replace my CB to see if it helps keep the odor at bay. So this weekend was a rather intense teasing weekend, and I can say that I have never been so desperate to cum in all my days of tease and denial. The worst part is I am only halfway through the 40 days as my Wife keeps reminding me while I beg for release. I even beg her to stop teasing me if I cannot get release, because my cock and balls ache incredibly for an orgasm. What I do not know yet is how I might be allowed to cum, or even if I will be able to cum on day 40, or wait even longer. My Wife has shown a keen interest in post-orgasm torture, and I am frightened that she will deem this the appropriate way to finally allow my climax. Although I get extremely turned on by the idea, I also know the reality is excruciatingly painful, and I would rather just be allowed to cum with some teasing afterward. But that is not my decision. So it is 20 days down and 20 to go… Tuesday, January 27, 2009 And so it continues Well, this is just a quick update as nothing new has happened. More teasing yesterday, and yes, I am even more frustrated and aching than I have ever ached before. It’s obvious that my Wife is not going to relent until the 40 days are up. After our tease yesterday I washed, shaved and applied Neosporan before being locked back up. Tonight, assuming the teasing will continue then, it will be the test to see if this has combated the odor issue from being confined in a solid plastic cage. I will of
updating my blog with the results. We’re heading away together next week and my Wife has already confirmed that we’ll be using the plastic security locks to keep me locked during our travels, plus the padlock so the teasing can continue while we are gone…February 15th feels like such a long way off right now. Wednesday, January 28, 2009 Neosporan works… as far as I know. Last night involved some serious teasing after my release. Since I applied Neospran before putting on my CB earlier, I didn’t detect even the slightest hint of odor. The real test will come when I have to go more than 24 hours between tease sessions, but I’m not sure exactly when that will happen yet. My Wife seems determined to maximize teasing right up until day 40. She is getting way too good at this. Last night’s session lasted two hours and I was virtually crying by the end. I felt so desperate either to cum or for Her to stop…I didn’t mind which option it chose, as both seemed better than that intense teasing. Alas, still no orgasm yet, leaving me with a completely frustrated and aching cock. Thursday, January 29, 2009 The test… Well, unexpectedly (for me at least), my Wife didn’t let me out yesterday for a tease session. She asked how I was today after giving me that break yesterday. I explained that it’s like a one-way ladder—up only. Every tease pushes the frustration and ache to the next step up, but going an entire day with no release or teasing doesn’t allow you to drop down a rung. The frustration can only ever grow. What this means is that I am locked for at least 48 hours without any release, which will serve as a better test of the Neosporan theory. Hopefully I get released tonight so I can see if Neosporan holds up over multiple days without release. I can reapply the gel to my head using a q-tip, but it’s tricky to apply it to the shaft while locked. I also reapply daily to my balls and any exposed areas that my cb permits. I’ll let you know tomorrow. Friday, January 30, 2009 Venting… ok…I need a bit of vent time so please bear with me… Firstly, there was no teasing yesterday again, so I am on day 3 of being locked up with absolutely no release or teasing. This increases the challenge for the Neosporan theory. That’s the positive side. The negative part is that I’m getting a little testy, which may just be because I am on day 24 of denial. As I’ve mentioned before, I have completely stopped topping from the bottom but am now noticing we are playing less. This too adds to my irritability. My Wife seems to enjoy our tease and denial routine, though I always knew She enjoyed it because it makes me happy. I had hoped she would start exploring more—reading books I bought her, researching online, and becoming more creative in our play. So far, my Wife hasn’t shown much creativity. Anything new we try happens only when I bring it up. The whipping only occurred because I laid out all the restraints and Her whip on the bed and asked Her to whip me. She seemed to enjoy it and talked about doing it again, but like most new activities, it hasn’t happened since. I feel like telling Her that we should stop role playing. If She is only doing this to make me happy, then I am not truly happy. I know I frequently push Her beyond her comfort zone and she pushes back sometimes when she doesn’t want to cross a certain line, which I accept. But She isn’t pushing Her own boundaries at all, and it’s becoming stale for me. We’ll see what the weekend brings. Maybe if I confront Her with this—saying that I feel She is only doing this to please me, and therefore I don’t want to play anymore—She may decide to kick things up a notch,…otherwise the role play might be over, but right now I’m not sure if that would be bad…we’ll see.