The last half-year has been a whirlwind of stress. Between work, family, and everything else, keeping myself in chastity became my constant anchor (perhaps even an escape) from the worries that haunt me at night.
For our 30th anniversary, my wife let me out of my Jailbird cage for some wonderful marital intimacy. She enjoyed several orgasms thanks to my tongue, then suddenly jingled the keys to my lock like a dinner bell call. Since I had only been permitted PIV sex about a month prior, it caught me off guard, but I certainly didn’t refuse.
Once things settled down, no one mentioned the cage; I tucked it into a drawer and we drifted off to sleep. A few days passed, and with my work schedule easing up, boredom struck one afternoon as I decided to edge. The error? Using a Fleshlight that had been gathering dust in the closet for ages. It felt so good, but I pushed too hard; even pulling away from the toy didn’t stop it. It wasn’t quite a ruined orgasm, nor was it the earth-shattering release I’d shared with my wife just days before.
That marked over 400 days since my last solo act. While it isn’t a total disaster, I’m disappointed in myself for giving in. It’s like dieting and then eating that brownie; deep down I knew better, yet I did it anyway.
Today, I handed the keys to my wife and asked her to put them away for good, making sure she knows I haven’t re-locked just yet. “Maybe today will be the day I get back on track,” I thought. I’ve given myself a close shave, so all that remains is slipping back into the cage. My only hurdle is that my wife has been teasing me since last night (and this morning), rubbing and reminding me of my un-locked status. My primal instincts are screaming for the option to fail again.
It’s never felt harder to re-lock before. I truly enjoy being caged; I love the sensation and our secret dynamic. Our lifestyle has brought us incredibly close, yet right now, I’m tempted to rub one out like in the old days. The psychology of chastity runs deep among you all. I need to explain that my self-control wavers when given the choice. I must confess this unauthorized release. And yes, I am locking up immediately.