Introductions discussion

Hello everyone, I am MsTreat’s sissy bitch. (And for reasons of protocol, will refer to myself as “this bitch” or “her bitch” from now on in these forums. This bitch will also refer to MsTreat as “Ma’am” most of the time. We are married, but that was just formality for the benefits of so doing. We got together first as Femdom and malesub, and that is the core nature of our relationship now as always. We are in a 24/7 power-exchange relationship, with the workplace being the only place that is even slightly out-of-role for this bitch. This bitch is a “forced femme” sissy, although to be fair, this bitch was always a gender-bender who loved cross-dressing in an androgynous way in public, and in a feminine way in private. So the “forced” bit is more about complete and consistent denial/supression of this bitch’s masculine habits/traits than it is about appearance and dress. Ma’am has been bi, but has a strong preference for women. Gender matters far less than submissiveness and masochistic temperaments to Ma’am, though, which is why this bitch is fortunate to be with her. Her preference for females works out to this bitch’s benefit, though, because it means that Ma’am really won’t put up with any masculine behavior or appearance. And it has also lead us into the realm of chastity play, as will be described in a moment. Ma’am came from a more SM “leather” background, whereas this bitch came from a more DS “slave” background, but over time we have found the strong intersection that works well for both of us. Ma’am channels her sadism by focusing on cruel treatment and lots and lots of “discipline” (or just out-of-the-blue abuse), and also on lots of humiliation play about her bitch being “worthless and pathetic as a man” (and just barely suitable as a femslave substitute), using her bitch as her toilet every single time she needs to pee, lots of stressful bondage, public humiliation by having her bitch wearing basic makeup, tight shirts that plainly show my small breasts, andro or femmy shoes, and a girly shoulder bag when out in public with her, etc. This bitch channels her submission by giving up everything to Ma’am, especially any last vestiges of masculinity, including male forms of pleasure. (Ma’am encouraged her bitch to even do HRT for a few years.) And by seeing Ma’am’s sadistic ministrations as part of this bitch’s ongoing conditioning to her ultimate authority and power over her bitch. “Ma’am gets everything; bitch gets nothing.” Ma’am gives her bitch a little sweetness here and there to keep her bitch yearning, and her bitch gets some tangential nurturing when cuddling and pampering her when she wants downtime from being “on”. So by now you can probably guess why are we here on these chastity-oriented forums as opposed to more general bdsm forums? Because over the past seven years, the nature of our power-exchange keeps firmly steering into the “sissy-slave-in-chastity” genre as opposed to all the other possible flavors of BDSM expression. And because we are only just now getting very serious about the chastity aspect of that genre. We’ve flirted with chastity play on and off (mostly off) for about 4 years now, due to two things. First this bitch’s anatomy truly cannot tolerate most of the easily-found, traditional, “trapped-balls” designs that feature a base ring and removable cage. This bitch’s scrotum is too meaty and her sissy grapes ride too high and tight. The scrotal pain is unbearable and totally uncontrollable during the nightly “systems-checks” (nocturnal erections) that occur several times throughout the night. Also, this bitch’s sissy grapes are escape artists that can magically squeeze through the smallest gaps that can possibly fit my anatomy. Finally, all the traditional trapped-balls designs stetch the scrotum and push the grapes out to the point where they are brutally savaged by every seam in the crotch of even the loosest pants. But our desire to find some viable form of true full-time chasity had gotten particularly strong in recent months so we’ve tried quite a few different things. As Ma’am pointed out in her “Hello” thread here, we might have finally found a winner in the Exobelt Extreme, but won’t know for certain until another week or so has passed. At one point, this bitch was even seriously investigating tools to implement this bitch’s own design ideas for a practical chastity belt, but perhaps the Extreme will save this bitch the trouble. This bitch will definitely be doing some in depth reviews here soon of the devices she has tried so far. Of course, the chastity angle plays even more deeply into both the forced-femme dynamic and also the complete denial of male forms of pleasure. While Ma’am might still occasionally use the body’s hard-wired pleasure response as a contioning/reward tool, increasingly she wants to redirect her bitch’s sexual pleasure to essentially revolve around only what gives Ma’am sexual pleasure: oral sex for Ma’am, and fucking her bitch’s pussy with a strap-on. Already the orgasms that this bitch is allowed to have are as clinical and as spoiled as possible to reduce their pleasurable impact. Ma’am would happily cut out all orgasms for her bitch if she didn’t suspect that doing so would result in a kind of “resigned shut down” of all sexual yearning. “What’s the fun in denying you if you stop caring because you know you’ll never have an orgasm again?”