I’m transferring my journey from another site… 29/6/15 Last week I brought up chastity to my wife; she was keen, though perhaps a little unsure. She leans toward vanilla experiences, but over our nine years of marriage we’ve tried rope and some other light BDSM activities. I compared the Holy Trainer, CB-X, and Birdlocker—all available locally—and decided the HT seemed like the best choice. In those few days leading up to Friday, I was much more attentive as a husband (infinitely so). After finishing work early on Friday, I went out and bought a Holy Trainer, bringing it home in its bag without hiding it. When my wife returned, I told her I’d like her to decide when to put it on. After some late-night play, I managed to get myself into the device. I attached the cock ring first and then pushed the penis down the tube; it didn’t look quite right initially but I left it as is. It felt comfortable enough, though engaging the lock took a few attempts. I fell asleep around 11pm and woke at 4am with a strong erection. Urinating while sitting was definitely new for me, but it worked, so I went back to sleep until morning. I massaged my wife at length; it felt wonderful focusing on her rather than myself. The kids came into our room as we got ready for the day. I removed the tube and readjusted this time using moisturizer for a better fit. I took my son to soccer, worked from home, and then joined the family at a children’s party, all while knowing what was happening under the surface and that no one else knew. Back home for a normal evening, though still very attentive to my wife with plenty of massages. We watched 50 Shades; she mentioned I could remove the cage by Sunday night at 8pm. The movie itself wasn’t special—Story of O is much better! Sunday arrived and I woke early to clean the kitchen and living room (possibly for the first time in over a year), then continued helping with cleaning and packing as we prepared friends for a BBQ. We went to the mall, and I barely noticed wearing the HT. I’m already becoming a better husband and feeling good about it. After our friends left, I did even more cleaning. At 8pm my wife said I could take the HT off, which I did while she ran us a bath. I had to do some other tasks too (turning off lights, arranging music, making the bed). I washed the HT in soapy water and then got into the bath. True relaxation! Afterward we went to bed; having been without an erection for a short time after release made the rest of the night truly magical.
I should have mentioned that my lock was set from Friday to Sunday, unless any infractions required it earlier. My wife and I spoke this morning before work; she noted something had really improved—firstly we’re more open, I help more, and for me, I respect limits and boundaries better now. If men do think with two brains, turning one off makes the other work much more efficiently. Now at work I’m wondering what effect locking in will have. Bring on the weekend.
3/7/15 Well it’s been a massive week of work culminating in securing a huge (+$100M) deal today for my company. Many months of hard work and negotiations landed exactly where planned; I felt accomplished meeting my wife at lunch. We’ve discussed removing the hair around the HT ring so it doesn’t catch, and after lunch she bought a beard trimmer (even though I don’t have a beard). Back home she ordered me to remove the hair and get into the cage. Wow, what an erotic feeling shaving down there! After a quick shower, taking quite some time getting back into the HT tube. Initial tries were tough (excuse the pun), but after applying ice and moisturizer I was in. Been hard for about 1.5 hours now; my cock pushing against the end of the tube feels good. I’ve handed my wife the key and don’t know when she’ll let me out—likely toward the end of the weekend, who knows. 5/7/15 Saturday passed with lots of massages given and helping around the house with chores etc. Felt really horny at night; watched a romantic comedy with my wife then went to sleep (following the no-touching rule). The little ones came into our bed early morning but I persuaded them to stay downstairs watching TV. My wife wanted me to go down on her and she had a massive orgasm, then said I should unlock, have a shower while she joined me. I washed her body in an almost animalistic state; using her hands, she gave me an absolute earth-shattering orgasm with spurts of hot cum hitting the tiles in the shower. My legs were shaky for a while and I absolutely loved it… Exceptionally mind-blowing. Then locked up again throughout the day, planning to wear the HT to work tomorrow… 7/7/15 Wow I’ve now been locked in for four days apart from a half-hour release on Sunday (or does that count as two days since caging started Sunday)? Either way it’s becoming something I like—I didn’t know what to expect at the start, as no one really does. I spend most of my day sitting; the HT ring can dig into my pubic bone area. Combined with a hard-on, it creates an interesting sensation… Definitely not complaining about it. Sleeping has been fine although I wake early in the morning with pinching around my balls—not sure if it’s pulled hair or something else but a small adjustment fixes it. I did a proper clean in the shower this morning. Our shower has a handheld section; firstly I use it to clean the cage inside and out, including directing water jets directly onto the eye of my penis. It’s a sensitive area for me (and probably most guys too), so anything near there is a hard limit following an attempt at catheterization years ago in BDSM play. That’s something I don’t plan trying anytime soon. Back to cleaning. After washing with water, I put some liquid soap into the cage and rinse it out with shower water, also making sure to retract my penis (could be called ‘doing a turtle’) so the soap goes all around and cleans the whole area. After getting out of the shower, I use a hair dryer to completely dry it inside and out. Getting a hard-on at work is different when caged. Previously (BC or Before Chastity) I could sit in my office or be in a meeting and get an erection for no reason; standing up meant concealing it. Now I can get one and it doesn’t show at all, something I’ll get used to… The sensation is the same but no one notices. Yes the bulge looks different too but I doubt anyone is actually looking closely. My wife/KH hasn’t said when I’m getting out yet; I sent her some blog links to read for ideas. Aiming for the end of the week. Writing this and thinking about it continually gives me a hard-on, causing my boxer shorts to hike up my arse. Need to get back to work. That’s it for now. 8/7/15 It’s insane how much power a cage has on a man. After forwarding blogs to my wife (which she read), she has started acting out some D/s role play including:
- bringing me my phone,
- asking if she wants a foot massage and responding with a forceful yes when I offer,
- saying “don’t touch” or the time will be extended when I adjust for tightness. I’m learning not to pester her with constant touching, massages, and requests. Also settling into her way or the highway, giving up control of that vital part of my anatomy. Last night I cleaned the kitchen while she relaxed on the couch—something unheard of in our house just a few weeks ago. I wake at night with raging hard-ons and feelings of stretching or pinching in my balls. Am also reminded constantly that the HT is there due to t
It presses against my pubic bone. I also realize that despite the discomfort inside me, no one else has a clue what’s going on.
Tonight I taught my weekly class and spoke for two and a half hours in front of an audience; nobody would have suspected anything was different.
I crave some praise or even constructive criticism from my wife. I love her more than anything. 13/7/15 It was a significant week, and by Friday I had been locked for five days. In the morning, I gave the HT a thorough cleaning, removing soap residue from both inside and out of the tube. However, I felt heat building up within it and around my balls, which is hard to describe—it hovered between uncomfortable and painless.
Friday evening passed, we went to bed with my KH informing me that there would be no release over the weekend and that I wasn’t allowed to touch her before sleep. We both woke up around 4 am, and she asked for a massage, which I was happy to give.
About an hour later, she turned over and announced it was time for cage release. She put on a condom, and we had PIV sex. My erection felt noticeably lower than usual, and while she climaxed, I did not cum. We then went back to sleep until morning.
I worked all day without permission to touch myself. After dinner, in bed, my KH played with me by hand and gave me an orgasm. Geez, it felt wonderful! Sunday morning I still had a hard on and enjoyed another orgasm while showering together.
Back into the HT for the whole day afterward, feeling apprehensive about being locked up again. That one day of freedom was enjoyable, but I realized that staying locked is also quite pleasant, bringing great benefits to our relationship. Our marriage has become much stronger than it ever was before.
I’m back at work today and enjoying sitting down to urinate; seeing and feeling the stream flow out through the tube feels so good, especially drying it off with toilet paper afterward. I don’t feel overly horny today, likely due to two orgasms over the weekend. We’ll see how it goes later in the week. 14/7/15 It’s Day 2 of Week 2 after my release at the end of the previous week, and the sensation is vastly different. You think the urge has subsided while your cock stays soft inside its cage, but soon enough, it can get hard again as if nothing changed. It definitely plays tricks on your mind.
Post-orgasm in chastity feels distinct from a regular post-O because the desire seems to build more slowly. I also notice my cock remains softer within the tube longer than before, and during the day, I’m paying less attention to it.
Tonight after getting home, my wife asked how things were going (she has given the HT an adorable name so we can discuss it openly in front of the kids). Merely talking about it made me fill up inside the tube again.
I mentioned that the feeling is better than last time and also expressed a desire for more restrictions, which now include:
- Putting away all my clothes and shoes from the living room;
- Helping with kitchen duties after dinner whenever possible;
- Never waking her in the night. For example, not wrapping my arms around her while she’s awake.
Massages should be given freely when feasible, and I’ll likely add more rules over time without dumping them all on at once.