Greetings everyone. First off—just as my signature states—I apologize for any grammatical errors; English isn’t my first language:)
Why am I writing this? There are a few reasons. Primarily, I want to share my recent life experiences with those who might understand them. Secondly, perhaps some of you can offer advice on how to handle the difficult days and support me during my journey:)
I’m relatively new to this lifestyle—since October 2013 (technically September, but I’ll explain later).
My princess has brought significant changes to my life as well. We have a notable age gap; I turn 30 this year while she is 49. However, it works for both of us. I find her absolutely sexy! The interesting part is that she isn’t the polished magazine-model type. She’s developing a slight belly and has some nice curves on her hips (though not overweight overall), with breasts that aren’t huge but have a lovely sag… yet I adore her body so much! If she permits, I could spend all day touching and caressing her:) Her buttocks are also slightly fuller, which I appreciate just as much as the rest of her:)
I am currently not in chastity, but I follow a strict tease/denial and cum schedule. I rarely cum or masturbate unless given permission—the control over my orgasm lies entirely with her.
This is the most intense relationship I’ve ever had. We feel deeply connected on an intimate level unlike anything I’ve experienced before. The emotions are stronger and deeper than usual. Sometimes, when I’m particularly horny but denied release, it feels like a rollercoaster ride. But she knows how to handle these moments, and I know she makes the rules.
Until last year, I was just an average guy with some typical relationships in my past. Before meeting my princess, I used to have sex two or three times a week. If single, I masturbated about that same amount of times weekly, sometimes slightly more. In previous relationships, I never really had a dominant woman.
The change started last March. While hanging out with friends and discussing life, the past, and the future, I realized I would be turning 29 still living in my parents’ house. Within two months, I decided to move out and live independently. I also planned to find a new job (I had been working for an advertising firm for the last two years; it was fine, but never truly clicked). I looked for an affordable sublet apartment initially. I asked friends if they knew of anything available. One friend checked at his workplace, and a female colleague replied that she has a two-room unit in her building. The price was reasonable, it’s a separate space with its own bathroom, so I moved in. She gave me a small discount because we agreed I’d help clean her place. My move-in date was early June.
June passed while I hunted for work; nothing quite met my expectations (I admit, I might have been a bit lazy:)). By early August, the woman I lived with asked if I wanted to take a job at her company (the same one where my friend worked). I decided to go ahead…
So, I began spending more time with this woman (as you can guess, she is my princess:) We talked increasingly. We went out several times after work, enjoying good conversation and each other’s company (we weren’t a couple yet, just becoming closer friends).
By late September, the dynamic shifted… In those two months of dating her out, I realized she attracts me strongly. I hesitated to say anything because of our age difference and my deep respect for her; I wouldn’t have brought it up… Meanwhile, whenever we went out together, she always looked elegant—dressed nicely with perfect hair and nails…
On September 27th, I was out with friends talking and drinking. Returning home at 9 pm, I realized I hadn’t cleaned her apartment that week, and since I’d be away for the weekend, I decided to do it in the evening. She wasn’t home yet.
I put her dirty laundry into the washing machine. This time, I found her underwear inside—it was the first occurrence. Usually when I washed her clothes weekly, she never left them there… To clarify, this wasn’t a fetish for me; I was just curious:) It wasn’t particularly sexy lingerie, but I took it out anyway and imagined how she looked in it. As I smelled the underwear (don’t ask why—I don’t know either:)), I heard her voice from behind asking… “What does that mean?” My heart dropped, my face turned red, total embarrassment. She had returned home without me hearing! She asked again, but for some reason, I just stood there able only to say sorry. She didn’t look angry, but quite stern. She told me to go back to my apartment and return the next morning before leaving for the weekend so we could discuss it.
I went to my place feeling utterly ashamed, thinking perhaps she’d ask me to leave tomorrow.
Saturday morning arrived, and I came to her apartment. She looked strict but not angry as before. She told me to sit down and placed the underwear on the table. She asked what was going on with it. I kept apologizing without really explaining… still so embarrassed. Then she asked—“Were you about to jerk your penis using my underwear?” I was like, “What?” She repeated her question…I was utterly confused!!!!!!!!!!!! What should I answer? Probably NO, but the opportunity slipped by as she said—OK, you can!!! My confusion deepened, yet in that moment, hearing her permission, my penis became harder than ever before!!! I asked if she was serious and what this meant. She replied that we would see it happen while I jerked on her underwear. Still confused, I mentioned perhaps I shouldn’t and should go back to my room. She stood next to me, handed me the underwear, and said—“Do it.” My head wanted to refuse, but I couldn’t resist her stern tone.
I pulled out my penis and started jerking off. I felt very ashamed yet incredibly horny simultaneously. The act lasted about 20 seconds. She smiled then said, “Clean it up please, and don’t touch my underwear again without permission. Hope you have a nice weekend.” I could barely speak, just cleaned quickly and left…
The following week passed as if nothing had happened. On Thursday, I asked her if we were going out, and she answered normally yes that day. We kissed each other (she initiated). She then invited me to move into her apartment—into her bed…I was overjoyed:D Walking home, I brought up the jerking session from last week. She didn’t answer right away.
When we got back, I grabbed some belongings and went upstairs. Inside, she waited for me wearing only a t-shirt, no underwear underneath. Her nice rear and hairy pussy—MAN, I was so horny; my penis was rock hard!!! She walked slowly toward me, took my hand, and led me to her bed. She teased me for about half an hour. Then she instructed me to bring her to climax using my fingers and mouth. I did my best. It didn’t take long.
Then she began giving me oral sex. She asked me to warn her before going over the edge to cum. I thought, OK, she doesn’t want my seed in her mouth. Before too long, it was happening, so I told her. She stopped, smiled at me, gave me a kiss, and lay on the bed naked with her backside facing me. She said—“Good night, and don’t jerk off.” I thought, What? Wait… what should this be? She looked at me, smiled again, and repeated good night before turning over and falling silent. She fell asleep.
I was confused; it felt strange yet powerful. I had never been so horny. I went to the bathroom and jerked under the shower instead. In the morning she asked if I had jerked off. Slightly puzzled but unwilling to lie, I told the truth. She said that my orgasm mechanism hadn’t worked properly since this moment onwards.
cum wen she allowes me to. Her house her rules. I can move away or I can stay. I should think about it until after work. In work, oh man I was totaly confused, but totaly horny for her. Her autority makes my penis wery hard…on the evening, she tied me to the bed and say, that I will be pusished for my jerk of in the night. She teases me the whole evening! Oh man! Wen she was finished (without a cum or orgasm), she untie me and snuggle to me. She allows me to touch her breasts and her belly (I did not see her breasts, because, like yesterday, she was wearing a T shirt). I was stroking her - I was frustrated, wery frustrated. We was talking about my denial and tease, about the reasons, about her, about me. We talked about my feelings, about he feelings. I was frustrated but this nigth I dont dare to Jerk off…frustrated, but tottaly attachet do her! In comming days we made our routine - she decidet, that it will be better, that in first weeks, I will spend time only with her after work (in work we are together almost whole day), to to help me and to prevent me from do what i am not allowed to. In next couple of weeks we wake up, go to work and from work to shop and home. Most of the time She then will dress only a t shirt. I am the most of the time naked. We are doing regular things - watching tv, talking, cleaning, cooking…ect., not only things in bed:) But it was wery hard for me to watch her butt or hairy pussy, making a lot of precum (really lot of!!). But the rules make she and I muss be strong. In this first few weeks, she teases me only three more times, the most time I am doing pleasure to her with mounth, hand or dildo (about 3-4 times pro week). I discover, that it is for me a big pleasure, wen she allowes me to touch and stroke her belly and tits (under t shirt - i still did not see her without a t shirt). I discover too, that she teaches me, how to be better partner, not thinking only about me, but think at first about my wife. On 2. november the situation changed a little bid again. She was the whole day a little bit stricter. Not bad on me, but strict. Form about 5 PM she stop to talk to me. I did not know why! About 10 PM she comes to me, grab my hand and bring me to the bed. She ties me to the bed. She go on her knees that i could do her a orgasm with my toung. Wen she was finished, she just take my penis and begin to ride him!!!!! It was the first time I was in her and I newer feeld such an intense feelings from sex as in this moments. I was confused, because I feel that I will not last long, but I did not know, If I am allowed to cum! After a short ride, she slow down - I was nearing the edge of cum and she asked - who is in charge od your penis and orgasm? I said you are, you! She smiles, stop to ride and stand up. My penis was pumping and i know that propably I will not cum today again. I then begin to beg her - she stop to smile and say strickt - no begging, newer, do ou understand? Then she unties me. She bring an calendar to the bed and two pens. A a blue one and a green one. She marked 16, 17, and 23 november with the blue. In december she did 7 and 8 december with the blue one and 14, 15 december with the blue one too. The 25 december she marked in green. She tells me that the blue one I will be teased, without a cum. On the green one - the christmas, i will be allowed to cum!!!!!! But, only if i will not cum on some other day before! I was wery frustrated and wery excited and wery horny on same time. That will be 3 months without a cum!!! Everithing was perfect until the 15 december…she was teasing me, like other days in schedule…but after fast an hour teasing, she stroke my cock for a second or so longer, as she should, so i feel, that i am over the edge. I was sayng no no no, but the cum came out. The orgasm was ruined one - it hurt and it was ruined, frustrated! And my christmas orgasm will be canceled!!!! She did not tel anything, just quiet - please clean it. Oh man, that kind of frustration!!!! On next day I asked her, when she will be making a new schedule for january and next months. She said, that she will do next schedule on 28. febtuary!!!!!!!!!! Oh my god! My hard penis was feeling like to explode, but, she make the rules, I must respect them! The upcoming days to the christmas where really hard, but I tried not to show my frustration. She was so kind to me in this days, really looking for me. I did not know, that she has one special christmas surprise. On 25. december, in the evening, we went to the bed. She asked me to take her to orgasm woth my mounth and hand. I did it and then she allowes me to stroke her belly and tits. She give me a kiss and stand up. She ties me to the bed and take off the t shirt!!!! I saw her perfect tits for the first time, I saw her perfect body fully naked for the first Time!!!! She goes to the kitchen for the stopwatch. She set the timer on one minute. She grab my penis, slip him into her vagina, as she was sitting on me!!!! Then she tells me, that she know, that it was not my fault, that I cum on the 15. december. But the rules are set - no christmas orgasm, if i will cum earlier. So she decide, that she will do it so, she will ride me for one minute long. If I will cum in that minute, propably it should be so, if i will not cum in this minute, the fate has shown, that the rules must be held. She start the stopwatch and begin to ride…i think, that she really wanted me to cum, because she had such a pace…after only 30 seconds i feel that i am near the edge, I ask that if I can really cum, but she did not answer, only rides. I explode between 40 and 50 seconds…I newer had such a strong orgasm - strong physically but strong emotionally too. After it, she left my penis in her vagina and she lie down on me. I think, that she was like so 10 minutes, my penis was sliding out. She then stand up and untie me with smile… It is near one month from my last orgasm. I wait until the 28. february to next schedule, until that time, i am without any teasing. My princess did not show me her beautifull tits and whole naked body again. She told me, that this year i will see it three times!!! But propably not in the first schedule for march and april. So I am waiting until the end of february… What to whrite in the end? I dont know, how long we will be togehter. For example I will have kids in future, she don t. She told me, that I can move and go from her, anytime I will feel, that it is the right time for me. But I feel that the time for move out will not come maybe in wery long time.